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Suicide

by Mellow Pillow

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1.
Fly in Hell 04:35
Let's try just to think about how to get things done Before the moon and stars so dark may put us down. Yeah why do we always wanna reach that side ? There is no answer so we'll try another ride. To crawl inside a tunnel of whisky coke Highlights the fact that we know we need to collapse. Let's try just to think about how to get things done Before the moon and stars so dark may put us down. High, High, Hight I see myself flying in hell I didn't know...
2.
The Finding 08:19
Start, stop and go, anyone you know who has nothing to show, might be done tomorrow. If you get too down, If you get too high, You'll be afraid of the light, You'll be ashamed of your fight. Is it a sarcasm ? Is it a sadgasm ? Stop hanging around Stop trying to find Some fucking answers To feel better They don't exist Even in the feast I've been finding peace, I found a piece of me. Laid down to the ground, Face up to the sun. If you get too down, If you get to high, You'll be afraid of the light, You'll be ashamed of your fight. Is it a sarcasm ? Is it a sadgasm ? Yeah ! Yeah ! I've been finding peace, I found a piece of me. Laid down to the ground, Face up to the sun. I get too high, All my life is a lie, I try to find something not to die. Be afraid of the light. But be aware of their cries. Be afraid of their sights. And be aware of your lies. Lost in the find.
3.
Trance 03:24
It’s Been a while since I get high I don’t know know why but I don’t mind I know it’s stupid, and now I breathe it Where is my will ? Where is your voice ? I cannot feel it. All i can feel is… Trance I got addicted to a parasite It takes me away from paradize. Don’t wanna go there, why would I care ? I need the shouts, to get me out I wanna feel it, i wanna feel the… Trance
4.
On My Way 04:55
I’m on my way to the garage I avoid the city, I avoid the pain Never thought I could have spend my time In this desert gloomy rotten flat Now say "hello", we are feeling so slow That feeling it’s just so high so down Never thought I could have been trusting you From the depth of this terrible surface Now my pillow is just hanging around That feeling, it’s just only your face Shout it, i can hear it i can shoot it to the limit, i can feel it i can try not to vomit you can hear it you can try not get it, Yeah Never thought I could have forgotten her love since the smell of this shinny velvet glove Now my pillow is just calling me through That feeling, it’s just so high so down Never thought I could have been wasting my days From the depts of this terrible highway Now my pillow is just layin around That feeling there is only your face Shout it, i can hear it i can shoot it to the limit, i can feel it i can try not to vomit you can hear it you can try not get it !
5.
In the summer time, I feel like up In the winter time i feel so down Ok, All right, all night
6.
Eau minérale, je t’aime tellement Tout doucement, toute la journée Des fruits et légumes, des produits laitiers Hey oh Eau minérale, tu es si bonne Pour ma santé Pour m’hydrater Et pas d’alcool, modération Hey oh
7.
Satellite 05:47
I was lying uppon my own rusty body, everything was so quiet in the flat i could hear my own breathing, yet this buzzing sound inside my head didn’t allowe me to hear my own thoughts. I no longer felt anything as soft as the first time that i heard her voice. Her voice was now an empty memory I could only recall in pain like the scream of young child. I was on my own, like a starling who left formation. I had been on my own for such a long time that it didn’t make quite a difference for now. An unberrable taste of iron stuck in my mouth irritated me for days. After standing there for hours listenning to the drone in my ears, I grabbed the reflectant blade lying on the nightstand. I walked to the kitchen sink to wash it up a litlle bit. The water cascading was whistling like a false harmony. The noisy feeling that nothing stands on its place, and no one belongs to nowhere. I wipped it on my grey t shirt and it sketched a light brown smudge on the cloth. When I dropped my head on floor and planted the shinny and sharp seed inside my arm, It reminded me the motherly love, cold and juicy. As I was expecting to feel something as intense as a great pain, i rather experienced compusure and dispassion, composure and dispassion. A trickle of blood is now flowing on the floor tiles, drawing the shape of a satellite. The pattern looks to me like a mecanichal bird, and it flies straight away, as i now i am diving straight away. It’s funny how you can try find some meaning at the dusk, as you do with your own existence.
8.
The Heretic 07:19
You gave to me some fantasy I gave to you my prophecy Lost in the maw of a big hound Lost in the ground, look what we found Lost in the wound, there is no room, Where is your voice ? lost in the void I am your sweet heretic Your deadly wine flows on the bands You bring us down and ring the bell You make me fly inside your house You mefisto, and drag our bones Lost in the wound, there is no room, Where is your voice ? lost in the void I am your sweet heretic The Heretic has taken my soul

about

Suicide is a stadium garage album, lo-fi and noisy, progressive and direct, pretentious and clumsy, full of contradictions and flaws that make me particularly like it. It represents the completion of three years of composition and intensive concerts within my very first group, when I was just returning to settle in Bordeaux. I owe him a lot. First of all, since he confronted me with my first experiences in rehearsals, galleys, concerts, but also in group composition and recording.

Suicide can be heard as a concentrate of negative emotions, and the period in which it was composed is no stranger to it. Nevertheless, it acted as an essential outlet. Composing and recording this album were remarkable experiences, and moments of intense joy.

Now it's yours. Love it, fear it, hate it, get annoyed by its imperfections, or tolerate them. Or not. It's not my problem. I am immensely happy and proud to share it with you today.

Alexis

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released December 16, 2019

All songs written and played by Mellow Pillow

Alexis Deux-Seize: guitar, lead sing
Johann Pineau: bass, backing vocals
Camille Toulisse: drums

Aditionnal guitars on track 1 by Sylvain Palis
Recorded live in june 2017 in Bordeaux
Mixed and mastered by Mathieu "Mamat" Faugier

Artwork by Géraud "Ratiskal" Rouxel
Designed by Louis "Courtney" De Laage
Tape burnt by tcritromal

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